Hands Away - Interpol
The vocals are soft as hell. But I just love this song.
Like any beautiful thing, it reminds me of you. But the melody, I don’t know why but I just immediately start thinking of you. Today I set up distractions so I wouldn’t have to think about you but none of them worked. And at the end of this sleepless night, I’m stuck wondering, will I ever get out of this limbo? Will I ever move on or will you ever come back? Or is my fate to wait for you all my life but to no avail. Will I spend the next twenty years awake at night hearing songs on tv that remind me of the short time I got to spend with you?
I get embarrassed about my story with you. People go out for years and move on like it didn’t happen. All I got was much more brief than that and I still love you like I’ve loved you since the inception of the feeling in my body. Probably even more in your absence.
I appreciate you much more now. I have experienced loneliness that has changed me. And I don’t mean in a relationship way. Losing the one you thought of as your best friend is much harder than that for me. I’ve lost the person I talked to on a daily basis about anything and nothing but more importantly, I’ve lost the person that I talked to when I felt unsafe, and scared. I will never forget that night I fainted. You were miles away but so much closer emotionally than anyone else in the world. So as I sat in silence for over 6 hours again, I was reminded of how much our conversations meant to me.
Maybe I should have taken your advice. Maybe I should have just been a great friend to you and then maybe I would still be able to talk to you whenever I felt like it.
But then again, I would never know what true happiness is if I had. So maybe I do wait the rest of my life for you. Maybe I live to 100. Maybe you do never come back. But one thing is for sure, for these next 80 years [maybe] , I will definitely think about you and never regret what has happened. Maybe just maybe, you were worth everything.
Will you put my hands away?
Will you be my man?
Serve it up, don’t wait
Let’s see about this ham.
Oh, what happened?
Home spun desperation’s knowing
Inside your cover’s always blown